Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Tragic it seems, to be alone again


Guruguruguru*


Will you, walk me
To the edge again
Shaking, lonely, and I am drinking again
Woke up tonight and no one's here with me


Insomnia, great, that's just what I need. Had a creepy dream. Woke up to Linkin Park and Adema's Giving In.

Take me under
(I'm killing all the pain)
I'm dying tonight
(i'm sick of all this pain)
Watch me crumble


You get the idea. Basically it's just weird stuff.

So, a toast to the world. Cause I'm taking it. My life I mean. Raise a glass and down a shot. You feel you can take the world but of course you can. May you make it your own. You know what you want and social constructs are the fences you have to jump over. Otherwise, it'll keep you imprisoned in your own little world, collecting frustrations and insecurities like a hobby. Destroy yourself to fit the world or take life and make your own.

There are some pretty questionable life questions that I want to ask right now. Like if Romney and Obama agrees to most of what the other says in implementing policies, in leaderships and such - what's the difference in voting between them then? 

How unfair it is for Filipino candidates engaged in early campaigning are just exercising their "freedom of expression" while it's been approved in a bill that posting opinions on the internet against these persons may be grounds for "libel"?

How do people without fandom live their lives? Oh, wait, because they actually have one.

When will Supernatural end? I need my life back now please.

When monsters die they end up in Purgatory but where do they go when they are kiled in Purgatory?

Why haven't I put Xcode in my Dash again?

What's the use of being a Time Lord when there's such things as Time Locks?



I'm not self-studying on coding and graphic designing because of the job. I'm doing it because I love it. Because it's something I'm actually a bit good at. 


"What are you talking about? 
I'm a a joy to be around."
-Dean Winchester
"Yeah? The dirty socks in the sink? 
Your food in the fridge?"
-Sam Winchester

"I like it."
-Jerk
"It's not food anymore, Dean!
It's Darwinism!"
- Bitch



Evil is evil in itself. But people who believe that they are doing the right thing are more dangerous than people who knows that what they might be doing is wrong. Because, in the quest to succeed people with the right intentions might resort to all means necessary and they won't stop because they think they are doing this not for something like a greater good. Like they're sacrificing. But people who may consider the wrongfulness of their action are aware that they might be mistaken and stop. 

So I ask, which is better - the person who are doing evil, bad things but doesn't stop because they think they are good and what they are doing is right or the person who knows that what they are doing is wrong, feels guilty about it, acknowledges the need to make up for it but still continues to do it?

Or maybe I should have asked which one is worse.

Now I realize - the depth of the influence of social media in one's life is directly related to his or her popularity. The more popular you are the less time you have to be in the social media sites but you are being talked about in on them. But people with less social life hence a handful number of close friends hence lesser popularity will be on these sites and most of the time talking about the popular people more than the time the popular people have to read all of them posts.

I'm just saying the key to successful and happy life is to take the opportunities given to you and treat events in your life as blessings or turn them into advantages. 

*Am prone to making weird noises when bored to death or  scare to death

Nothing's really ever pure now


THIS IS TORTURE. there's so many people laughing and now i'm crying.

There are cricket noise in my ears maybe that's why I can't hear. The sounds last night was just the wind, I'm sure. And I need to sleep more, apparently. 

This is Jared Padalecki. A digital drawing of Jared Padalecki.
 Uhm, I hope he looks like Jared Padalecki.
 

Things that had happened since...since life made it impossible(really) to blog:

[> Anti-Cyber Crime Law, 15 petitions against it and the eventual TRO

[> Supernatural Season 8. I am a fan.

[> My beautiful graphics tablet named, TARDIS.

[> Graduation of people who are Survivors of Life. Way to go! =)

[> Repainted my room. Supposed to be shades of brown, but idk, it seems like i'm colorblind.

[> new life purpose. -_~





Alright. So, this is it. Another post posted. Look at that drawing. There's gonna be more of that stuff. Life. These are the things that make me smile: sunshine, supernatural fanfictions, drawing, coding, reading books, annoying my siblings(you know i love you guys) and being a total geek.

What makes you smile?

Also this: "Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life. "
-Confucius